
I’ve decided not to abandon this blog and just sort of redesign my use of it. I’ve been stuck in a creative roadblock for quite some time now and as such, I didn’t really have any desire to keep up with this project nor did I have an iota of motivation to do so. I’ve had friends and family these past few months and years that I’ve decided were not such nice people and I no longer wished to associate with them so I cut them from my life. I’ve been dealing with crippling panic attacks and anxiety that hit me out of nowhere. I’ve been trying to get a diagnosis for health issues that have been plaguing me for a while now. All these things and more on top of every day stressors just really had me consumed and really put a stopper on all of my creative juices. I’ve had to make some major lifestyle changes like becoming vegetarian and exercising daily so that I feel better mentally and become a better version of myself physically. I have not taken care of myself in ages. In fact, I can’t even recall the last time I exercised because I was afraid of dying prematurely nor have I ever so dramatically changed my dietary habits for fear of health issues. I’m afraid these things are all because of stress and not paying more attention to myself both mentally and physically. I’m hoping to be able to repair some of the damage I’ve done to myself throughout the years. I know results won’t be overnight and I know not to set unrealistic expectations of myself. I’m also done looking for excuses so that I don’t keep up with new healthy habits. When I fall off the wagon it takes a long time for me to get back on and it needs to stop. I’m learning the key to success is moderation. As such, I’m trying to fit moderation into every aspect of my life: exercise daily (30 minutes or more), eat in moderation (reduce, carbs, sodium, sugar), play video games less, read more, and go outside more. They probably seem like such small things to most people reading this but they actually make a huge impact on me and I normally just stay in my home and play video games for hours on end and eat unhealthy food so these changes are huge. Don’t get me wrong though, I’m still going to play video games but I’m not going to prioritize it over everything else. I use video games as an outlet for my anxiety. It helps me focus on games instead of toxic shit that runs through my mind. However, when I play games too much sometimes I kind of become immune to the effect they have on me and things start to get worse. I had to turn to the changes I’ve made and I’m noticing a positive change. So, after all that TLDR; what I’m trying to say is, I’m gonna focus this blog on mostly gaming and books. I will still do my book reviews on here and start reading more since I stopped a while back. I’m gonna share game screenshots and other game related stuff so that’s what this has become. I may even share photos of my cats too because cats are the best and anyone who says otherwise knows nothing. Anyways, welcome to the new evolution of my self titled blog. Enjoy or au revoir!